# What Doesn't Kill Me Keeps Hitting Me

Source: https://brightonxu.com/posts/en/2025-12-31-those-that-dont-kill-me/

Author: Brighton (Yi Xu)
Published: 2025-12-31

[Reposted from WeChat] Looking ahead to 2026

The me who hoped to live a little more at ease this year didn't exactly get his wish.

I feel like a lot of my mental models, strategies, and methodologies converged at breakneck speed over the second half of this year. Got any theories on why?

It's a very peculiar feeling — as if many of my earlier moves with no clear purpose were all paving the road for this recent convergence.

Some sense of it all being fated, somehow.

There's a discomfort I can't quite place; at the root of it, it's still 「」, I suppose. 「」.

But the good news is, I came out of it an integrated me.

Anyway — whatever 2025 held.

Happy new year, everyone.

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